{"id":1180,"date":"2015-12-11T13:59:23","date_gmt":"2015-12-11T19:59:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/belovedlove.org\/reflections\/?p=1180"},"modified":"2019-05-17T13:45:11","modified_gmt":"2019-05-17T18:45:11","slug":"what-i-want","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/belovedlove.org\/reflections\/2015\/12\/11\/what-i-want\/","title":{"rendered":"What I Want"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"12:11:15<\/a>by Lydia Floren<\/p>\n

Sometimes I avoid God. \u00a0I\u2019m not even sure why. \u00a0Maybe I am afraid. \u00a0Or I don\u2019t want to feel guilty. \u00a0Or maybe I don\u2019t want to change. \u00a0Or I don\u2019t want to face myself. \u00a0I don\u2019t. \u00a0I don\u2019t. \u00a0I don\u2019t.<\/p>\n

What do<\/span><\/em> I want?<\/p>\n

I DO want to press past my guilt to forgiveness.
\nI DO want to be free of my compulsions.
\nAnd I DO long to\u2014need to\u2014hear God say:<\/p>\n

All is well, Child. \u00a0All is well. \u00a0I love you right now, just as you are. \u00a0Always have. \u00a0Always will. \u00a0There is nothing you can do that will change that.<\/em><\/p>\n

I am here. \u00a0I am not going anywhere. \u00a0There is no need to be afraid. \u00a0You are safe. \u00a0You are not on this journey alone.<\/em><\/p>\n

Now come to Me, Dear One.<\/em>
\nStep into My love<\/em>
\nReceive My embrace.<\/em>
\nTell Me what\u2019s on your heart.<\/em>
\nListen to My wisdom.<\/em>
\n First Come.<\/em>
\n Then follow.<\/em><\/p>\n

What I want – what I need – is to be loved. \u00a0Only then can I love as He calls me to love. \u00a0No need to avoid God. \u00a0He is the best thing that ever happened to me!
\nCome to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.<\/em> \u00a0Matt. 11:28 NIV<\/p>\n

We love because He first loved us.<\/em> \u00a01 John 4:19<\/p>\n

This holiday season, Be loved<\/strong>. \u00a0And then Love<\/strong>. \u00a0Soak in God\u2019s love and shine!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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